Escape

I wrote this poem 8 years ago. If I remember it correctly, something major happened with my life during that time that it made me feel very confuse and sad. But thinking of it now, the "major" thing that happened with my life 8 years ago is not really a major thing now ;-)

Since the time I wrote this poem, I have been through a lot of complicated situations. And I will not deny that during these times - when you feel like you can't do anything to change the situation; and that you don't have control to certain things - the shadow of confusion covers my vision.. darkens my path.

Recently, I was in that kind of situation. I looked up for this poem in my blog, and that was the only time I realized I have not posted this poem yet. And so ow, I am sharing a piece of Reyapot's emotions whenever her road is obstructed by confusion.

ESCAPE

I wish to stay oblivious
Of things
That would bring pain in my heart
Of memories
That would only put tears into my eyes

I wish to stay unaware
Of all the people around me
That would only influence my thoughts & judgment
To stay indifferent
With all the words they are trying to say
That would only convey confusion into my mind

I wish to forget
How it is to get hurt
That would only cause emptiness in my heart
The meaning of pain
And the feeling of my heart yearning
That would only lead to longing & desire

I wish to find a way
To end all the doubts in my mind
That would only fabricate worry and fear
To end the anxiety that I feel
That would only constitute insecurity & uncertainty
Here inside of me

ReYaPoT
November 11, 2000