Strange Dreams

I just want to share my dreams for the last couple of days. I find them strange; and thinking of it now, I feel a little scared.

Two nights ago, as I lay down my bed, my mind was clear; meaning I am thinking of nothing. I was just trying to enjoy the moment of tucking myself to bed. And as soon as I felt comfortable, I close my eyes and my body was completely relaxed.

I can feel that I am beginning to drift away from consciousness; and little by little I am entering the world of the unspoken... the world of dreams. Suddenly, I saw myself standing on the bridge. I was standing on the side, holding on to the railings (the bridge I am standing on looks like one of the fly over in the city) and it appears that I am going to jump off the bridge. The sharp blow of the wind on my face woke me up (coming from the electric fan I guess). But the image of me attempting to jump of the bridge is still clear in my mind; I can still see it whenever I close my eyes.

And last night, as I started my journey to the state of the subconscious, I heard a voice saying the word "suicide". I was trying to figure out whose voice was it. Until finally, I recognize the voice... it was my voice. I don't see people in my dream, I can only hear the voice. I was trying to figure out what does it mean. But I got back to my senses; and I remember my dream the night before. It got me scared.

I am not sure what does it mean. They are really strange, considering that I was relaxed and I have a clear mind before I went to bed.