Disturbed

I feel a little bad today. Actually a lot. Disappointed. And hurt. Of all people, I was not expecting them to put me into such state of emotions. I have been exposed with their insensitivity and selfishness. I have even come to the point where I was able to accept their weakness and short comings. I have also found ways to somehow protect myself; but still this magical feeling kept me from being over protected. Though sometimes when I am back to my senses again I would think that the magic feeling is just making me become too selfless. I am not sure if its a bad thing. Sometimes I guess it is.

I was able to speak with my dear friend about it this morning. And I am happy that I shared it to him. His words were sweet and encouraging; words that makes me feel how much he cares for me. He speaks of the truth even though he is aware that it will only hurt me more. I appreciate it though. What he told me made me feel more sad... distraught even. But on the other hand it made me realize that I need to really prepare myself from time and try to practice the opposite of my being selfless.