I want to share a secret with you my blogger friends and visitors. Allow me, please (batting eyelashes). One of my greatest dreams, next to being a composer, is to be a singer. I love to sing; I like songs... a lot. For me songs and poetry are the same. They are the best ways to express yourself - emotions, thoughts. Anyway, back to my greatest dream of becoming a singer. I was in college when I started thinking of auditioning for a band singer/vocalist. But I never had the guts to do it. I even thought of asking my college friend Joan to accompany me; but I was too coward to do it. Modesty aside, according to my friends, I got a good singing voice (blushing). Unfortunately, I also have a little of self confidence. I got
stage fright. I love to sing, really. But I only sing inside the house with my family and close friends. My hands would get shaky that I could not hold the microphone right. My voice is also shaking and sometimes I can't breathe properly. I get scared. Here is another secret, honestly when I was in college, I have inferiority complex. I don't believe in myself much.
On my 23rd birthday, my dear college friend Joan took me out for dinner. She said that it would be her birthday gift for me. We went to Linden Suites in Ortigas, Pasig. The restaurant at that time has two guests - me & my friend joan and a lady with her american husband. There was a band playing and singing soft, mellow music. The vocalist asked us if we want to sing on the stage with the band; and I thought "now is my chance" (LOL). And so to make the long story short, I finally had the chance to sing in public. Yes, you can count this one as singing in public, because while I was singing, the waiters, the receptionist and I think even the valet suddenly came out from nowhere. It was a very different experience, unforgettable indeed; and I am glad that I was able to over come my performance anxiety at that time. Thinking of it now, I am not sure if I would be able to do it again.